Growing up without a father

I am Chuma Lelethu Bongoza.I was born and bred in site b V section.My mother gave birth to me in site b day hospital on the 4 July 1998.2016 me and my family we moved into the place called Makhaza so we still living there.I grew up in a big family me,cousins,my aunties and my grand parents.But my mother only have 2 children me and my sister.I was raised by a single mother i never new how to grow up with you father.That was the painful thing to me as a child but i finally forgive that.Because i new i couldn't change the fact that my father did not want to be the part of my growing.

To be honest growing up without a father is not a nice experience to a child.But on the other side i was lucky there was my grandfather who was a father to me.I grew up calling him Father and he was actually a father to me.He love me to a point where i even forget about my real one.He used to give me nice nicknames and brag about me saying i will be this and that.He wanted me to be the great thing ever in life.Unfortunately when i was doing my grade 11 20 January 2014 it was on Friday.I was coming from school when i was changing my school uniform my mother came to me.And i just feel there is something wrong i just cry.

She says "daughter don't cry you grandfather passed away this morning".My ears where blocked and i cry hard.My mother reminds me of one thing that my grandfather didn't like cowards so i must stop acting like one.So i stop crying because i know my grandfather always tell me this "Ayilolizwe lankenenkene eli funeka uqinise umqolo okanye iintaka zokwakhela izindlu zazo phezu kwentlo yakho".So i stop crying and i was really hurting.Days goes and we go to eastern cape to burrie him.I was reading his thorn stone it was hard but i have to.It took me some time to really believe that my Mntu-mlambo i no longer alive in this world.Time goes and i started to be better i healed,and
i just forgive that me and a person who is a father are not the same thing.Maybe i was never made to have a father so i decided to let things go.I just told my self that god is going to be the one who is going to handle everything in my life.He is god, my creator and the father to the fatherless.